They’ll say your crazy 

I’m currently in the “she’s crazy” or “she needs medical attention” phase of the slander campaign now that people are starting to noctice things that are being said don’t add up it’s time to try to convince everyone I’m lying by saying I’m making my entire lifestyle up as a “fantasy” because the sociopath has told everyone I’m basically human trash with no money lol )I lol to keep from crying ) attacking my accomplishments and accolades and figments of my imagination as last ditch efforts to convince the masses everything I do is a fraud ….documenting this trip down the rabbit hole has helped me a lot with putting things into perspective as it’s hard to compete and prove yourself with some who has no human emotion and is basically a professional liar and public menace disguised as a friendly old soul 

The Dilemma 

As I unpack all of this I run into this most difficult of road blocks 

The mask is real and there is no way to convince others of your plight as the sociopath is a popular and loved psychopath that everyone wants to be around and admires people love lies and deceit it’s an escape from their own responsibilities and accountability of how they themselves assistant these monsters in their endeavors 

Who wants to admit they enjoy the pain of others ……

Colonization is REAL 

col·o·ni·za·tionkälənəˈzāSH(ə)n/

noun

the action or process of settling among and establishing control over the indigenous people of an area.

…… it’s sad that freeforming IS NOT the gag where I am it’s just not acceptable at all colonization IS REAL…. and western beauty standards are encouraged which is also sad …..my hair has always grown long If left alone but freeforming makes me feel free and in control of my aesthetic which can be hard enough in the USA with pressure to assimilate and conform in order to compete for work and opportunities …..colorism …self hate and colonialism make wearing your crown a no no in the very places it should be celebrated also the fiction that AA look think and act a certain way is sad I find it odd that in the USA my naps are normal but not here ……I find it harder and harder to look how I WANT MYSELF TO LOOK . I spend a great deal of time helping others achieve their ideal appearance but my own is often questioned there is so much to unpack in our communities 

My hair goal inspirations 

Full Disclosure 

I’m a survivor of a toxic set of parents and family members this post will probably cause me even more harm but “You can’t heal what you don’t reveal” ~ Jay Z …..
I can’t go into detail but in order for myself and my little family …husband, kids and dog to survive and for my businesses to survive I have to be honest about my life although Ive gotten help from them in the past the truth is I’m what’s called the family “scapegoat” so my name is always involved in some sort of shenanigans and past mistakes I’ve made with others are always brought out to embarrass me or ruin me whenever I start becoming successful or when I try to break away …. this is what’s happening now with images and other things from a past relationship being used to ruin my professional reputation in hopes of making me dependent upon the “Family” so I won’t be able to be the person I was destined to be 

Don’t be a salty bird 

The Crow and the Raven 

  A CROW was jealous of the Raven, because he was considered a bird

of good omen and always attracted the attention of men, who noted

by his flight the good or evil course of future events. Seeing

some travelers approaching, the Crow flew up into a tree, and

perching herself on one of the branches, cawed as loudly as she

could. The travelers turned towards the sound and wondered what

it foreboded, when one of them said to his companion, “Let us

proceed on our journey, my friend, for it is only the caw of a

crow, and her cry, you know, is no omen.”  

 Those who assume a character which does not belong to them, only

 make themselves ridiculous.